As horrible as it is to say this (or write this), the one thing that I have moved to the back burner is my family. This chapter was a rude awakening for me! Juggling my coursework for the cohort, being a GIS at two schools, a mom, a wife, a sister, a daughter - I am failing miserably! The easiest thing for me to put on hold has been my family (everyone reading this now sees me as a horrible person).
After reading this chapter, I realize that in rejuvenating myself, I can be a better leader, mom, wife, sister, daughter, and student. I must take time for myself. Unfortunately, I don't see it as a reality. I work 12-13 hour days, Monday through Friday and 8-10 hours on the weekends just trying to stay on top of my work as a GIS at two schools. It is important that I support my teachers, my staffs, maintain discipline, complete CELDT testing and school site plans and meet deadlines. I also have deadlines for coursework in the cohort. I don't, however, have deadlines for my family. I am recognizing (as a write this) that my actions are telling my husband and our children that they are not a priority, but what can I change? I read the chapter, I do prioritize, I delegate, there's just so much to do - so much that must be done. What else can I do? One GIS at two schools is something new to Clovis Unified. It is a learning year for all of us!
Carrie- I am totally with you! I am horrible too! Work definitely consumes us especially at this time of the year with CELDT testing and working on the masters project. The good thing is that we have a supportive, understanding family that will be there after all this craziness is over!
ReplyDeleteCarrie- I don't see you as a horrible person at all....you are learning. Learning how to juggle and prioritize. You're allowed to make mistakes. You know what needs to change and that will lead to change. Just 2 months left of classes and we'll have one less plate on our table. I believe that CUSD recognizes how thin the GISes are spread and if the budget allows, hopefully they will be reinstated next year. I know you want to do an amazing job in your new position, but not at the sake of your family. It is important to take care of yourself and your family.....cheers to the light at the end of the tunnel!
ReplyDeleteNot horrible at all-just trying to make it work like the rest of us!! I would bet when one of your kids needs something you make sure it gets done and that they know you are there for them! The coursework is almost done-you can do it!!!
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